February 10, 2023
I need the strength And understanding to pull myself out of this hole I continue to dig myself into. I have struggled with addiction for the last 10years of my life. I'm estranged from my mother she won't even have Thanksgiving dinner with me. I do t want to live like this anymore I've tried and tried to do the next right thing. And the devil keeps me down every chance he gets it seems. I feel utterly hopeless at this point I've gone s far as going to jail on purpose in order to get clean. It lasts for a while when I get released, but for some reason or another I somehow convince myself I can use in moderation or use a different mind altering substance and find myself back in that hole again